MeltDown

As I’m writing this I’m on the verge of a melt down.

My chest feels so tight and at the same time it feels like it wants to burst with emotions.

Stress, pain, sadness and anger, all these feelings. I want to scream, I want to cry, I want to hit things.

And with all of this I don’t know what triggered it.

Laying in my bed with the blanket over me with my head popping out, my hands won’t stop shaking, I’m getting short of breath, my mind’s running faster than ever and at the same time it feels like my world is in slow motion. I hate melt downs they are scary.

The things I say and do aren’t me. When I’m in that point of no return, I feel like I’m out of my body watching everything I say and do to the ones I love saying “WHY, why am I saying that, why am I hurting the ones that love me”.

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  1. It was good to read this. I didn’t understand what having a melt down meant. A friends son experienced this in my presence it was a bit upsetting at the time but he soon calmed down when he was allowed to sit quietly and left to get over it.

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